| ((Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you)) |
[Jun. 20th, 2004|11:58 am] |
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| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | My mom yacking her jaw about something | ] |
These past few weeks have been interesting and so fun. I know I say this all the time, but I'm soooooo glad school is out for the summer. There's this boy, that I like a lot. I'm not sure what's going to happen with it. We don't wanna ruin our friendship and I am soooo worried about that. Uggghhh Why does everything have to be so complicated????? All I can keep thinking is that everything happens for a reason. I don't know what to think...should I move on? I don't want to.
*So I'll think about you
*Overanalyze Your words
*Wonder...is this meant to be?
*Because I want it to be so much more than it already is...
Love Always
Claire
*I miss my Tara...='{ |
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| *Muffinkinz* |
[Jun. 18th, 2004|03:45 pm] |
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| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Konstantine: Something Corporate | ] |
Sorry, I haven't written in sooo long. But My computer has been messing up. It's soooo annoying. Neways, so wow lots has happened these past few days...weeks, whenever the last time I wrote. Kalee Bo Balee is over...we are extremely hyper at the moment...(MufFiKinZ) LMAO...dont ask...ahem...anyways, so Tommorow I'm probly going to ioa...woot woot. OmG on Monday me and Cary and Courtney my luv went to the groove...me and cary met these gorgeous boys...later...found out...mine was drunk...**I kissed a drunk guy, I kissed a drunk guy yes i did...sry something corporate song...* I swear I can relate every song they have ever wrote somehow and someway incorporate it into my life...maybe that why i luv them so much...hmph...k im leaving now...I'll write more later and update more later...
XoooXClaireBearXoooX |
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| Piece by Piece and Bit by Bit...I'll break this down for you real slow. |
[Jun. 11th, 2004|01:14 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Matchbook Romance: Promise | ] |
Last night I did the most fun thing in the world. I went outside at 2 in the morning, might I add. And jumped in the pool. It was so fun! My mom came outside cuz I think she heard the big splash and shes like "what the hell are you doing out in the pool at 2 am" and im like SWIMMING OF COURSE! She just shook her head and went back to sleep. It was funny. I swam for like 30 minutes, and then went back in and went to bed. Well tried to go to bed. I couldnt sleep. I watched the mtv movie awards, then went to sleep. Neways, so that was an exciting event. Kalee called wanting to know if I would go to the mall w/ her and Wendi and meet them there. The only problem is...my grandmother is sick, but my mom is coming home from work so maybe she can take me. I would ask for them to pick me up. But ur, the family might have a small grudge against me considering I did break up with their son. I don't know. It would just be awkward and weirdoness. Saturday = the beach...im so excited. Sunday = I wanna hang out with Lindsey I miss her terribly. I have been TRYING to call my tarabian, but she wont pick up her cellular. I miss her sooo f'in much! I can't wait till she comes back. Woah, my mom's home...why is she home so early?
<3 Claire |
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| Her heart (<3) like a crystal...she's lucid...and departed |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|04:47 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Used: Taste of Ink | ] |
Well I've been thinking so much lately. I've decided that I was never in love with him. I wasn't falling in love with him. I was falling in love with love. I'm so incredibly glad that I am not with him anymore, because I do not miss him one bit...I know that's harsh, but after what happened. After the "I love you but I think she's hot and I want to hook up with her." I don't mind being so harsh. < = \ > In a way, I do wish things had turned out differently than they did. But I know that "Everything happens for a reason." I practically live by that. I don't miss {him} I miss the {boyfriend} part. I miss the phone calls at 1 in the morning that lasted hours. I miss the kisses, the hugs, that mean something. I don't miss you, I miss who I thought you were. As sappy and depressing dramatic drama queenish that may sound, well, that's just it. It is depressing...and It's making me angry. I ABSOLOUTELY LOVE being single, but sometimes I just wish I had the {boyfriend} part I was talking about. I know you don't even understand what I'm talking about, Lol. But that's what this journal shit is for...I can vent and it helps me lay my feelings out. I'm going to go think some more. . .
<3 Always and Forever
Claire |
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| You're kiss might kill me, so won't you kill...me so I die happy? |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|02:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | guilty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fall Out Boy: Grand Theft Autumn | ] |
Took Emma home about an hour ago. Saturday = beach w/ Ashlee. Fun Stuff. I want to go to the something corporate concert, I think its in uhhhh September?? I dont know. I love them tho. OMG I miss Tara so f'in much. Ah! It sux! I love you Tarabian. I hope you're having a great time at camp. I'm going to come visit you soon. Gr I'm so bored...I have to go find SOMETHING to do...
<3, Claire
/Single is best...but everyone wants to fall in love\ |
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| Kettle Korn and Such |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|02:02 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Emma eating like a fucking pig | ] |
Well, Hung out w/ Emma a lot this week. It was so great. Went and chilled w/ Brian and Brandon and went swimming but that didnt last long, it was boring. Then we talked and made food in the kitchen...how exciting lol. I love brian and brandon...they're awesome. Neways then we decided to go to the groove. So we all went (Brian Brandon Emma and I) it was fun. For me and Emma. The guys were kinda bored. They left and then we met up after. I met this boy...he was a hottie. I loooove being single again, Its so much more fun for me. Plus, its summer and its more fun! NEways, so that was my past few days. Tommorow well today, I'm going to the mall w/ Emma and this boy she's been dating a bit and hes bringing some kid for me. This should be interesting...k I'm out
<3 Claire |
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| Did I ever tell you that everything I know about breaking hearts I learned from you? |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|01:23 pm] |
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| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Pieces of me: Ashlee Simpson | ] |
Stayed up really really late last night. Had a wonderful conversation with Emma my love. I miss that gurl so much. We have so many funny things happen to us when we are together. *Good luck w/ that boy of yours* Thanks for letting me vent about the occasion of the week. Ha! OMG I'm sooo excited I'm going on a cruise in July...YAY YAY YAY. It's going to be so f'in awesome. (Haussenfeffer...this shuld b hilarious) Neways, then I talked to Chelsea on the phone for a little about all these boys that have seem to have lost their minds. It was interesting. Neways, then we talked about other stuff too. I'm going to the groove Wednesday with Chelsea, Emily, and we're meeting Brooke and some of her friends there...How exciting. If you're going...call my cellular and we shall meet up.
I need food . . . I'm out
<3 Claire
Fall...sometimes I fall so fast... |
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| Just hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens |
[Jun. 7th, 2004|11:27 pm] |
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| | confused | ] |
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| | Finger Eleven: One Thing | ] |
Today was boring as hell. I didnt do anything. I woke up at 12 and went back to sleep at 3 then woke up at 4. Yea I wasted my day as Brandon said. aNyways, then me and Sirena were gonna hang out but we couldnt cuz her mom didnt get home till forever. So I went and hung out with Brandon and Brian. It was fun I guess. We watched cabin fever or w/e. Its the worst movie in the world. I hated it. They kept setting things on fire. It was kinda funny...but eh I thought it was stupid as hell. Then Brandon decides he's going to beat the shit out of me with my flip flop. It was hilarious actually. **Inside Joke**...wow that was great. Neway, then Brandon and Brian got in a fight w/ utensils in the kitchen...OMFG...then Alicia or w/e the hell her name is comes walking in. I'm like holy fuck. I knew they were step bro/sis w/e. But I didnt think I would see her...dont know why but i didnt! And she came walking in...I'm like greeeaaaat. I worked w/ her at the JCC and well it was interesting right Emily (Clay) lmao...so great. I think she absoloutely hated me. But W/E. Then I had to go at 11 which sucked cuz we were having fun. So here I am once again bored as hell doing absoloutely nothing. lOl. I think I'm going to the groove Wednesday, if you want to meet up or something...call my cellular...
Much Love,
<3 Claire |
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| I wanna hang onto something that won't break away or fall apart. Like the pieces of my <3 |
[Jun. 7th, 2004|03:17 pm] |
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| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Pros and Cons of Breathing : Fall Out Boy | ] |
Slept until 1230 today. Laura called wanting me to go to camp with her next week. (where Tara is working this summer) I really want to go, but I can't because I think we're not going to be here. Anyway, got in a fight with my grandmother (living with your grandmother may seem fun, trust me its not especially when you're the only child and you are treated like a fucking 7 year old every day) Neway, god she can be such a bitch. I was joking about something and she's like "THE WAY YOU JOKE IS OUT OF LINE" ??? WTF Is that supposed to mean?! What I JOKE the wrong way now...damn. I can't wait until she moves out...Only a few more months...Can I do it? I hope so. Neway, ever since Tara left I am so sad. I miss her terribly and she's only been gone ONE WHOLE DAY. And she's going to be gone the ENTIRE SUMMER. Sigh...this sux. I was supposed to hang out with Chelsea today, I called and left her a message but she never called back...hmph. Neway, besides I dont think my grandmother would drive me anywhere after what she said to me...and after what I said to her...I went in my room and slammed it and locked myself in (where I am now) and started blasting Something Corporate. They always seem to calm my nerves...I'm addicted to them. Neway, so I dont think I could go anywhere anyways. I want to go out, I was in this hell hole all day yesterday with her and my mom up my ass telling me what to do and how to do it and how im not doing it right EVERY 2 SECONDS. I just want them to shut up. It's not so much my mom as it is my grandmother...she thinks I'm 7 and I have no idea what I'm doing. What she doesnt understand is, I'm 15 I do know what I'm doing. Just leave me the hell alone for once. Sheesh. Neway, I think I'm going to walk to Jennifers house <--next door...and complain to her a bit and torture her brother...god I hate that kid. I'm out
<3, Claire
*I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams |
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